Can you believe it?
I went to bed again at 11 pm. Two nights in a row! Yay!
Then Mr. J woke me up coming into my room to get my car keys. Boo Hiss! lol At least I got 6 hours of sleep. Which is better than my usual nightly sleep time.
So, I worked 3 days in the office this week, Lord. That means I had “face time” each day. I do think it helped me and it helped people to see me back in the office. I was planning on doing 4 days, but I was really tired by Wednesday. I asked my boss if I could work my way up to 4 days. And she said I could.
Thank You for blessing me through my job, Lord. I don’t know of any other place where I could set my own schedule. Work from home when I want and work in the office when I want to. Plus, the atmosphere is one of family. It is truly amazing. Thank You!
And now comes the time of confession. Yes, I have talked to Mr. B. But it has been limited. I am pacing myself with my interactions with him. I really do enjoy our conversations. I think if we just keep it to surface talk we will be fine. It’s not the same as Mr. O or Mr. R. I knew I was going to meet them in person. And I did meet them in person. That is where the line was crossed.
I am sitting here thinking… Did I ever ask for Your forgiveness with Mr. O? I don’t know that I did. Lord, please forgive me for my actions with Mr. O. I should have never put myself in the position of meeting a stranger. And then spending the weekend with him. I am truly awed that you protected me that weekend. For all I knew, he could have been a serial killer. Yes, I know that is a bit extreme! But honestly, when you meet people from online you never know who they really are! They can say they are one person and actually be another person all together.
Also, Lord please forgive me for sending Mr. B bikini pictures. I misled him with those pictures. They were created. Photoshop and other programs can do amazing things these days. Forgive me for my need to impress him. It shouldn’t matter what I look like. He is off limits in that way. Completely off limits! Please help me to have a right way of thinking when it comes to him. Clear out the confusion and give me a clear picture of truth.
Wow! I have done a lot of stupid things when it comes to men, Lord!
God Stop: Please give me the mind of Christ when it comes to all things men! My way of thinking stinks. I know that I need a renewed mind. So thank You for transforming my mind. And helping me to place You first in mind.
Front and Center.
Then I know all other thoughts will fall into place. You bring order to chaos. Right thinking instead of confusion. Godly love instead of lust. You set me straight in how I live my life.
I LOVE YOU!